Hope is the Cure

I wish I’d said the sky was still blue

Even though you saw only clouds

To show you all life’s bright colours

That would’ve washed out your doubts

I wish I’d shared every rainbow

Every promise of anchored hope

Then maybe you would’ve endured

And found a better way to cope

I wish I’d shared a positive thought

For every negative thought you spewed

That would have cancelled them out

And not let your anger be chewed

I know if I had shared more hope

Then things could’ve been different

You wouldn’t have lost your will

If only I’d not been so ignorant

I wish I had known the poison within

That bound you captive and sad

If only you had seen life’s hope

Life wouldn’t have seemed so bad

For hope is the cure that you need

That gives you the strength to fly

No matter how rotten life can get

Hope helps us not to quit or cry

Heaven Untold

I wish I had told you about heaven
I pray that is where you’re at
But if you’re in the flames of hell
I can only blame myself for that

I wish I could have been braver
And not worried what you thought
For you do not only live once
That’s what I should have taught

I wish I had shared the good news
Of a heavenly home up above
A place so much better than earth
Instead, I only shared my love

I wish I had explained to you
The very purpose of your life
To know that death is not the end
There’s a reward for all your strife

I wish I’d said all these things
But sadly, it’s now too late
For you are gone - deceased

Who knows your ended fate…

I wish I'd said... in Retrospect

I wish I’d said how bad things were
Maybe then you’d understand
I did not mean to leave like that
Things didn’t turn out as planned

I spoke with you the week before
Could you not hear my pain?
My tears were wet upon my cheeks
Yet you gave no reason to remain

I am sorry for the grief I caused
I know that my death did sting
But my life was as good as ruined
I had nothing left to bring

I didn’t have the will or courage
To leave you with a letter
I know how you searched for one
Would it have made you feel better?

I wish I’d shared with you my heart
My failures, faults and my fears
I tried so hard to make things right
But words got strangled by my tears

Please can you try forgive me
It was a coward’s way to quit
If only I could have seen the future

I wouldn’t be left with this regret

Cycle of Life

For every soul that dies on earth

A new baby is born to the world

To populate for a new generation

Is to replace something new for old

Birth is a life’s new beginning

With a world as its oyster to grow

It takes a life time of lessons learnt

Before a soul’s wisdom will show

A baby will teach you dependence

It will change your world upside down

For every year that is added to life

Can be seen as a long countdown

But life is not a test to be passed

But a journey of love and discovery

Every day should be an adventure

From the moment of your delivery

When life slows down and age is set

You revert back to a dependent baby

For our lives are just a cycle of stages

Where we try living until we're set free

First Christmas without you...

How do I face my first Christmas without you
When the joy of this season has gone
I can’t think of the meal or what I should do
My heart has no room for a Carol song

How can I make this Christmas still fun
For the children you have left behind
There’s still plenty of shopping to be done
And Christmas presents to hunt and find

What will we do for our Christmas tradition
When you were the one we looked up to
You were the one who gave us direction
Even their Father Christmas was you

Please give us a sign you’re up above
That you’ll be watching us from heaven
Still with us spiritually with your love
To make it still special for our children

I wish I had...

I wish I had more time to prepare for your leaving 

To help me through the many stages of grieving

I wish I had known what you wrote in your will

You’ve left a hole inside that no-one else can fill

One minute you were here, the next, gone

Without you I have nowhere to belong

I still can’t believe you’re gone and it’s real

I don’t know how I am supposed to feel

You left me no note, no dates to remember

You promised me a life full of adventure

Who will I turn to for help and assistance?

Why did you leave me stranded like this?

Please give me a sign to know you can hear

Comfort my heart to take away this fear

Did you make it to heaven, I wish I could know

Help me to live well, this new life as a widow

In my Daddy's Name

Daddy, your grandson is growing

His full name will be yours

My stomach is now showing

Which my husband adores

We will have the son we’ve longed for

Who we hope will be just like you

Though you aren’t with us anymore

I’m sure in heaven you always knew

His name will carry on your legacy

We can’t wait to speak it out loud

His birth always felt like a prophecy

To have a son will make us so proud

Will he have your curly brown hair?

Will he have your grey-blue eyes?

He has been an answer to prayer

God has surely heard all my cries

Please give me a sign that you are there

When I give birth to your grandson in April

Show me that you can see and still care

Please send me some help in an angel

When he’s been born and delivered

And blessed to be carrying your name

We will see that your life is honoured

And your good name will always remain

Nature's Hope

It is said that time will heal the pain

But the truth is that the hurt will remain

Life will go on, but you’ll become strong

So still mourning your loss is not wrong

But find hopeful moments in each day

That will help take your aching away

For peace with pain, can still exist

When blessings are counted as a list

Life runs in pairs like a train track

With blessings together with lack

Joy can be found, even with loss

For peace and pain can still cross

So let hope take root in your hurt

Like a seed, downtrodden with dirt

For every death there must be a birth

This truth is revealed by nature’s earth

For those we lose are never gone

Their memory and legacy still live on

Never forgotten, but leave you they must

Fir this is the pattern of life we must trust

I Can't Remember, But I'll Never Forget...

I can’t remember the color of your eyes,

I’ll never forget the smell of your perfume.

I don’t recall exactly how tall you were,

But I remember how you lit up a room.

I can’t remember the feel of your touch,

I know your love from the times we spent.

You were always there, ready to listen,

When I was angry and needed to vent.

I can’t remember what you looked like,

So I’m grateful for the photos we took.

When I’m sad and I need you with me,

I feel your presence with just one look.

I can’t remember every gift you gave,

Or all the sacrifices you had to make.

But I’ll never forget how much you cared,

Every choice that you made for my sake.

I can’t remember the year you passed,

Or where I was on the day you died.

But I’ll never forget how my heart felt,

And how long I broke down and cried.

I can’t remember every memory we shared,

But I’ll never forget that each was special.

For every birthday or Christmas day,

Spending it with you was always crucial.

I can’t remember any time since,

At the special celebrations we share,

That I don’t look at your photo and cry,

And wish you could have been there.

I will never forget your loving smile,

Or how special you made me feel.

It’s not fair you went home so soon,

My life without you just doesn’t feel real…

Left Wishing

I wish I had said how much you matter,

And how important you were to me.

I wish I had made more time for you,

Instead of my excuses not to be free.

I wish we had made more memories,

Instead of reminiscing about the past.

I wish I had known what lay ahead,

That life’s years melt away so fast.

I wish I had opened my heart more,

Or showed you how much I cared.

I wish I had loved you with actions,

In the fun times, we should have shared.

I wish you are looking down from heaven,

And can see the heavy burden I’m carrying.

Can you feel the pain in my tears of regret?

Can you hear my words I’ve been praying?

I wish you knew the hole you have left,

Now that a part of my heart is missing.

Did you know how much I loved you?

And all the things you’ve left me wishing?

Dad's Name

Dad, can you see your grandson?

Are you pleased he carries your name?

He even has your same blue eyes.

That is known for our family’s fame.

I hope that he grows up like you,

So courageous, so kind and strong.

We can’t wait to tell him all about you,

And the history of the family he belongs.

His birth has made it easier to live

with the pain that your passing brought.

Knowing he carries part of your DNA,

Fills me with hopeful, happy thoughts.

If you're now an angel up in Heaven,

Can you watch over him and protect?

Will you help guide him to make sure

the path he takes is straight and correct?

It's Never too Late

Like a flower, it is never too late to bloom,

A seed grows into a bud, lying dormant.

Like a baby develops in a mother’s womb.

In a season, just paused in a growth stunt.

It is never too late to change your fate,

For the dreams you have lost or have died

For the smallest of hope as you patiently wait,

Can rekindle the flame of your seed inside.

That dormant seed that looks dead and gone,

Can be revived with a watered opportunity.

Don’t despair though it might be taking so long,

Just be ready to bloom with hope and positivity.

It is never too late, for there’s always tomorrow,

Hold on to your dreams and don’t lose them.

Never give up, for your future is not known,

There’s still time for your dreams to blossom.

Finding the Lost

Things are never too lost that cannot be found, including you.

You can lose your sanity, your marbles, in this crazy, upside-down world,

Your thoughts can get lost in your cluttered, muddled and troubled mind

You can lose your hope, unanchored, swaying in the storm, feeling hurled

Trying to find the will to live, not just to survive, but to thrive, a purpose to find.

You can lose your way, going in circles along life’s many detours

With your shoulda's, coulda's, woulda's and if onlys…

Looking for the light, back to where your memories were happier

You can lose your passion, those big dreams of your enthusiastic youth

Or you can lose your authentic self, always being a people pleaser

Not validating the value of your worth in the foundation of your truth.

Life is about searching and finding your own adventure to explore,

Discovering your purpose, your calling, that will satisfy your soul

A daily, continuous, intentional search to find that something more.

The pursuit of joining your broken bits together to be made whole

You can lose a loved one, but those who we love are never truly lost.

They stay buried in your heart, where a hole leaks grief in place of love

Shocking you with the reality of how much their absence does cost

As you search for the kind of comfort that hugs you like a glove

Don’t lose your time, wasting it idly away, ticking like a time bomb

Don’t lose your patience. Instead stay cool and calm at your core

Don’t lose your temper, exchanging it for strife and filling you with hate

Some search for justice and mercy, those lost causes worth fighting for

Some things are good to lose that you hope not to find again, like weight

There are countless things we lose in life, but nothing is too lost that cannot be found, especially you…

Kindness

Kindness is contagious,

It spreads faster than the flu.

When someone is kind to you,

You want to be kind too.

Kindness is like a virus,

Germs of goodness in action.

They spread when paid forward,

And can infect a whole nation.

Kindness is just a simple deed,

That makes our life worthwhile.

It is helping out our neighbours,

And infecting them with a smile.

Sneeze out words of kindness,

Cough out every negativity.

There’s no need to mask or isolate,

To spread kindness and positivity.

Kindness is the world’s cure,

For every bad, or sad or mad.

When paid forward to another,

Will make both of you glad.

Keep on spreading kindness,

With germs of joy and generosity.

Steer clear of life’s pessimism,

For meanness is an atrocity.